On Passover, both our physical and spiritual appetites are honored. So for what do we most deeply hunger? Richard Schiffman, in the following poem and another online, meditates on the often contradictory longings that are at play in a Seder, or a life.
In the dream, a woman swallowed — one after the other —
the stars. Some are hungrier than others.
Poets, for example, plunge their big dippers daily
into the Milky Way, skimming off the lyrical cream.
The pudgy child god Krishna, stole butter from mother Yashoda’s
curd pots. Shiva, by contrast, churned the ocean of nectar
with the paddle of the Himalayas. Poison wafted to the top.
He quaffed it straight, without a chaser, almost died,
like Christ for our sins, turned blue instead. Krishna — go figure —
blushed the same alarming hue gorging on all that butter,
while the Buddha, hungry for abstention, ate practically nothing.
No wonder he, too, turned a sickly shade, until the farm lass Sujata
hand-fed him curds and curries, and he became enlightened
and pleasantly rotund. The Israelites gathered manna from heaven,
but never stopped complaining, demonstrating
that if you are hungry for deception, even nectar tastes like poison.
Jesus said: “Blessed are the famished, for they shall be fed.”
Catholics eat his body and blood in church.
I wonder if it tastes like the stars. I wonder if God, grown tired
of swallowing stardust, hungers for the strong meat of the living.
During our yearly Seder, horseradish comes before the roast chicken.
The bitter is a prelude to the sweet. My mother feasted
on the gristly pupiks. They were her manna.
She never complained.
Same crew as last year in Sandy’s parlor
with its low ceiling and burnished walnut fittings
reminiscent of a ship’s galley. Mutinous, as usual,
chafing at the matzo, maror and bitter herbs —
the routine questions, answers, prayers and songs,
as Richard strains to keep us on the same page
as tradition. But the ship is drifting into giddy,
irreligious waters, no longer salt, but cloyingLY?
sweet, in which we dip and double dip
in levity what our forbears shed in tears,
or smeared in blood upon the doorway,
when death came sailing down the Nile.
Ten drops of ManischeWitz for the plagues on Egypt,
horseradish to prick the tongue with Pharaoh’s
lash. Bread left unleavened for the quick escape
into the desert, where freedom cost us more
than bondage ever did: 40 parched and famished
years, which we commemorate with a feast
when the caustic condiments are done.
Richard Schiffman is a poet and spiritual author who recently completed a work on Moses.